Hello! I am thinking of doing a life update every month (don’t hold me to that lol). I feel like it is the best way for you to find out a little bit more about me, and hopefully we can connect and feel closer.
For those who don’t know
My name is Emma, I am 20 years old, (turning 21 in August!).
I made this blog because for one, I love helping people. If I can help just one person, writing about various topics, then I am so happy!
Second, I love writing! I love having this little space where I can write about everything I’m interested in!
Third, I feel uncertain and anxious about the future, and as long as I have this blog as my passion, I feel like things can’t be too bad, right?
Graduating
I have just recently graduated (13th July 2023)!!!
If anyone else has graduated this year, let me know in the comments below how it went and what you’ve graduated in!!
I graduated with a FIRST?! I really can’t believe it, because I really struggled through all of uni, and towards the end, I was just basically doing what I needed to pass. So to get a first was amazing!!
I did Fine Art, because I have a love and passion for drawing.
Turns out I wasn’t encouraged to do much drawing, which is why I struggled so hard. (If anyone else has had this experience, please let me know, and I am so sorry that happened to you too!)
The nerves!!!
I didn’t realise I would be SO nervous to walk out.
I had so much adrenaline and nerves that I was literally shaking before I walked out!
When I walked out everything just goes blank. I felt like I couldn’t hear anything, it was all just a blur.
I was wearing heels (bad idea), they hurt so much. I would recommend wearing a pair of comfy heels (if they even exist).
Anyone who thinks they will experience nerves in this situation, I just recommend breathing…
The moment passes by SO quickly, you will think to yourself have I even been on stage?
There is so many people graduating, that I don’t remember anyone (besides the people from my course) who was there. Which is comforting to think about, because we get so nervous that everyone’s eyes are on us and judging us, that we forget people are not paying any attention to anyone but themselves.
We are all guilty of it. I spent so much time worrying what people would think about what I was wearing, my walk on stage, all these little things. And they probably didn’t even give me a second thought.
So don’t worry about what ANYONE is thinking. I promise you, it can’t be that bad.
The dress!!
I thought I was going to buy a new dress for this occasion. Then I thought about all of the fancy dresses I have bought, that I have never worn again.
So I decided to wear a dress that I have worn before, (I got it for my holidays) and know I will continue wearing until I don’t fit into it anymore lol.
It is a beautiful dress from H&M that was £24.99. It is flowy and has a slit in the leg, and most importantly it is very comfortable!
The nails!!
I wanted to match my nails to the dress (it’s the little things you know?!).
So I went with a light yellow french tip, with purple flowers!!
It’s little details like this that make me so happy, and makes the process of getting ready so much fun!
Now what?
Now that I have graduated, and I am officially finished school / education, what do I do now?
There is so much pressure with feeling like you have to have something lined up, or know what career you want to do for the rest of your life.
Well my life and feelings have changed dramatically since last year, so who knows what I will be feeling in a years time.
How can we have everything figured out? How can we say at 16-21 years old, this is what I’m going to choose, and that’s how I’m spending the rest of my life?
I have had SO many career dreams, that have changed quickly, so how am I meant to commit to something now?
What I’m going to do…
Firstly, I think focusing on my happiness and what makes me happy is going to be the made thought in every decision I make.
What makes me happy in life?
- This blog. I am going to continue writing on this blog for as long as I can. I started it 4.5 months ago, and I have enjoyed every minute.
- Writing. Whether it’s for my blog, journaling, etc, I love writing. (Anyone wanting me to write blog posts / articles for them, I am here).
- My loved ones. I will always continue to prioritise time with my loved ones, because they make me so happy.
- Reading. I love reading and I definitely want to make more time for reading. (I have a book recommendations page, with all of my favourite books, I continue to add to it as I get more favourite books) http://bigsisterera.com/book-recommendations/
- Health and wellness. I enjoy bettering myself, physically, mentally, emotionally. I feel like I am a happier person to be around, and just in general when I work on myself.
- Fashion. I have recently been getting more into fashion. I’m still trying to find my style, but I feel like I am always looking on social media and I don’t even know what I actually like anymore. So I am definitely going to try and find my personal style.
- Skincare and beauty. I have always had a love for skincare and beauty. I love a minimal makeup look and have always placed an emphasis on skincare, keeping my skin healthy. (I want to stay wrinkle free for as long as possible, please and thank you).
I still have a part time job, and I will continue working there and saving money, whilst I work on my blog and figure things out!
The pressure in your 20s
There is a huge pressure to figure everything out when you finish university, and have a job lined up for right after you graduate. But for me, I just want a break.
We have been in education since we were 3, and we haven’t had a break for 16-18 years, which is crazy.
I know when you do get a job, you’re not going to get a break for another 50+ years, but that just sounds insane to me.
We are only young once, and when I retire, I am not going to have this energy, and this healthy body, to travel and make memories.
So I would rather take a little bit of a break now, not rush into a full time job, and make memories while I can.
I do acknowledge that I am in such a privileged position to think like this. My family are so supportive of me, and they would have me living with them until I was 50 lol.
Thank you for reading <3
I hope you have enjoyed this little life update. I feel like I am talking to a friend!
Let me know if you want more of these life updates, or causal conversation like blogs.
I just want to let everyone know that if you are in the same boat as me, I totally understand!! And if you need anyone to talk to, my email and socials are easy to find on my blog!!
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